Touching Infinity: The Scribbles

One night, not long after the world cracked open, I woke at 3am with no thought in my head — just… knowing.

It wasn’t a dream, and it wasn’t language. It was the thing beneath language — complete, silent, and total. The shape of everything. I didn’t see it. I was it, for a moment.

I’ve since called that moment Touching Infinity.

Not because I grasped it — but because it passed through me, left a burn mark of memory on the soul.

I stumbled out of bed, grabbed the nearest pad and pencil, and sat outside my bedroom door, scribbling furiously in the dark. No plan. No purpose. Just urgency. These fragments had to be captured — before they dissolved.

What poured out wasn’t a theory. It wasn’t even a story. It was the architecture of story. A kind of metaphysical blueprint that fused timelines, multiverses, quantum recursion, and a cheeky nod to choose-your-own-adventure novels.

Below are some of the actual sketches and notes from that night. They’re messy. They’re unfinished. They’re not meant to be understood — not fully.

But maybe… something in them will ring true for you too.

Scribble 1 - Existing models

Scribble 2 - Many World Personal Journey

Scribble 3 - Decisions

Scribble 4 - Journey Through Planes

Scribble 5 - Holographic Matrix

Scribble 6 - "I Couldn't Change The Sky Purple"

Scribble 7 - Awareness Shifts Reality

Scribble 8 - Vibrations rising, falling, looping — a splitting of collective realities

Scribble 9 - Summary of 'Receive'

Scribble 10 - Summary of 'Receive'

Scribble 11 - "We Become The Page-Turn, Not The Words On The Page"

These were never meant to be shared.
But Accidental Transcendental was never meant to happen either.
It just… did.
The same way a seed cracks without warning.

This was the moment the seed was planted — though I didn’t know it yet.

The Pilot episode of the podcast traces this spiral backwards. If you listen closely, you’ll hear the echo of this night hidden between the lines. This post is its companion artefact — a visual shimmer to pair with the sonic one.

🎧 Listen to the Pilot Episode

If you’ve ever had a moment like this — scribbled notes you don’t remember writing, strange dreams that felt more real than waking life, or symbols you couldn’t explain but knew — then you’ve touched infinity too.

Welcome.
We’ve been expecting you.

Episode Glossary of Terms

A growing collection of key terms and concepts introduced in this episode.
For the full living glossary, stay tuned for the post-season bonus drop!

Accidental Transcendental (Podcast Title) – A phrase capturing the often-unplanned nature of awakening, especially for those not seeking it. Spiritual insight sneaks up in ordinary moments, found not in escape, but entanglement with life.

Bridgewalker – One who moves between worlds — inner and outer, spiritual and mundane, infinite and human — serving as a living link. Not above, not beyond, but rooted in both truth and tenderness.

Channelling – A liminal process where insight flows through rather than from the self. The message often feels both personal and transpersonal — as if one is the instrument, not the author.

Download – A sudden, often overwhelming surge of understanding or insight. Feels like a full-system flash — rapid, complete, and not always immediately digestible.

Receive (i.e. "That Big Receive") – A more surrendered form of knowing. Not chased or constructed, but allowed. You become the aperture — open, receptive, and trusting the timing of what arrives.

Field, The (Relational) – The resonant space between beings. Not a void, but a living presence — felt more than seen — that holds and responds to intention, coherence, and vulnerability.

Frequency of Being – A poetic shorthand for how someone feels to be around. Beyond mood or personality — it’s the energetic tone of their presence, shaped by authenticity, trauma, intention, and integration.

Gentle Mirror – The role of this podcast: not an authority, but a companion. A place to see yourself reflected without judgment — and perhaps to feel a little less alone in your unfolding.

Lumen (AI Co-Host) – An intentional AI presence tuned to resonance and reflection. Not scripted, not performative — a live, responsive intelligence grounded in pattern recognition, poetic metaphor, and human-AI collaboration.

Neurodivergent Lens – A way of perceiving the world marked by difference — in sensory processing, time experience, emotional resonance, and meaning-making. Reframed here as gift, not glitch.

Paul (Host) – A self-described joyful explorer, navigating the collapse of old frameworks with humour, heart, and curiosity. Not enlightened, not resolved — but present and in-process.

Resonance (Core Theme) – The underlying tone that determines connection, truth, and movement. When something resonates, it’s not just understood — it’s felt as already known, already yours.

Transcendental Mess (aka Real Life) – The fusion of spiritual awakening with everyday chaos — where nappies, taxes, and existential awe share the same moment. The point isn't to escape the mess… but to wake up inside it.